You’re Worth Showing Up For

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what it means to really show up for myself. Not to indulge in “self-care” the way the internet often portrays — but in the raw, deeply honest way where I stop making excuses and start living like my time actually matters.

Because the truth is… I’ve turned into my own worst enemy.

I hold my kids to a standard. I keep appointments. I manage our weeks. I plan each homeschool lesson. I stay on top of the calendar and always make sure everyone has what they need. But when it comes to me — my health, my goals, the quiet dreams God’s tucked into my heart — I’ve been letting myself down.

I’ve been defaulting to “later,” “someday,” or worse — “what’s the point?”

But what if… I didn’t quit this time?

What if I showed up for myself with the same consistency I do for my family? What if I treated my body like a temple instead of a last-minute project? What if I gave my passions the same space I give the grocery list or the homeschool planner?

What if I held myself to the same kind of accountability I expect from my kids when it’s math time, or when it’s time to clean up?

What would change?

I don’t need more time. I need more intentionality with the time I already have.

And maybe, just maybe, if I finally stopped treating myself like an afterthought, I’d see the fruit I’ve been praying for — not because I hustled for it, but because I finally aligned my daily choices with what I say I value.

Because I can’t teach my kids about discipline, purpose, and obedience if I’m not living it myself.

I want them to see a mom who doesn’t just talk about calling — but walks it out.

A mom who still writes, still creates, still honors her health, still learns new things — not because she has time, but because she makes time.

I don’t want my legacy to be “she was always busy.”

I want it to be, “she was faithful.”

So I’m asking myself today:

What if I just kept going?

What if I didn’t quit?

What if I finally believed I was worth showing up for?

And what if you are too?